This is the first post for this blog… and boy am I excited.  I’ve already done so much, I’m going to run through a BUNCH of stuff right now to get everyone all caught up.

This past summer I decided it was about time that I take TOTAL CONTROL over my life.  I didn’t want to be ordered around at my job(s) any longer, and I didn’t want to experience the same failures over and over… year after year.

You see, I was flat broke and miserable.  I could barely support my family and my self-image was in the dumps.

At the beginning of the summer, I had had it with my current situation.  After being fired from 1 of my jobs, I vowed to start my own business and begin working from home.  I had some success, but if you’re an entrepreneur you know there’s some months where you’re going to shatter all records… and others where you just won’t break even.  Yep, you’ll lose money.

And recently getting canned from my job meant that I needed to start work… and fast.  I got a sales job that was in-home sales in the construction industry.  It was “supposed” to be fulltime.  What with the economy nowadays, it was VERY slow.  But because my sales were tens of thousands of dollars, I may have only been working 10 hours a week but still making 3k per month…  And I was an independent contractor, so I got all of my commissions with NO taxes taken out…  For me, it just meant more money that I could invest into my business.

The problem with being an independent contractor is that you might have to go weeks without a paycheck.

So, to give you the full outscope on where I was when I started this program:

I was working parttime in a call center 15 hours per week.  I was working another 10 hours (sometimes more) per week for the construction-type business.  Then I had the rest of the week to work on my own business.

The problem was 2 of my 3 incomes were VERY sporatic.  In fact, I made a bunch of money in March and April this year, and basically made just enough to pay the bills and live in June and July.  August was a little better in the realm of my own business, but the problem is this: I wasn’t making enough in ANY of the 3 incomes to commit myself fully to any one of them.

This was a big conflict.  I’d forget to do something for one company, or I’d just be a slacker and go hang out with some friends instead of working on my business.  In fact, this summer I was VERY spoiled and VERY lazy, which definitely contributed to my crappy months.

I was spoiled because my 2 best friends were available pretty much all day, like I was.  My best friend Chris still attends college, but has a music studio in his parents basement (yes, he still lives at home – no big deal).  So HE was available all day long.  And our mutual best friend, Bill, is a new professor at a local college.  Yea, he’s around the same age as me (he’s 26 I think) and he’s a PROFESSOR.  Seems silly, but he is.  Which means when he wasn’t working on his curriculum, all three of us were hanging out.

Yea, all summer we’d BBQ at Chris’s house in the middle of a weekday afternoon, when everyone else we knew was at work.  It was awesome.  We’d go over to Bill’s or my house and play some video games.  It was just like we were in college again… total slackers.

Unfortunately, I was neglecting my jobs, my business, and even my wife because of my total and utter laziness.  And I knew it.  I was a total a-hole.  And I needed to change.

Sure, I had already changed alot since last year.  I had started a few websites, I had made some money online, and I was self-educating myself in marketing, coptwriting, and so many other skills.  It was very fun and exciting to actually learn what I WANTED to learn about.

But I was disappointed that all of my growth was in knowledge.  Sure, learning alot to create a profit in business is great.  Becoming “smarter” should be a goal for everyone.  But I wasn’t growing emotionally, spiritually, physically…  I wasn’t learning how to be a better husband.  I wasn’t becoming a better “ME”.

And I was fedup with it.  So I came up with a program.  I had purchased a weight-gain program (yea, I’m freakin’ skinny and have trouble gaining weight due to a high metabolism – sue me…) a few years ago.  I had “tried it” and just couldn’t keep up with it.  So I decided I was going to resurrect the routine.

In addition to that, I made a commitment to myself to work on my business harder than I ever did before.  I wanted to read a self-help book 15-30 minutes a day, so I could grow INSIDE as well as outside.  I wanted to be 100% fulltime working from home.

This website will be a place that I will write about my findings, struggles, and accomplishments.  But I’m also going to be motivating YOU.  You see, this website is ChangeYOURLife AT WILL.  I hope to inspire you to be able to take the same action in your life.  And convince you that you can do it AT WILL.

That was a major thing that I struggled with – will power.  Discipline.  Struggling to win the battle over my mind.  And I’ve just about won.  There’s still times where I fight that laziness and procrastination.  But it’s fun to battle with myself, so to speak.  Because I know, more often than not, I will win the battle.  And with each victory, I’m getting closer and closer to Changing My Life… at will.

Stay tuned, because this is going to be a FUN RIDE!